Sat here thinking about you. I haven't slept in nearly two days and my depression is getting worse. Jakes constantly working and I feel alone. Dad is reaching out a lot to try help but I don't know how to explain it. I miss you so much. I haven't cut in a few weeks but it's getting really hard. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you when you needed someone. I wish you were here for me right now I miss you more than anything. I'll come down soon and see you I promise. I'll bring dad with me and we can talk. It'll be weird to me not hearing you butt in all the time. I miss you so much big brother.
